This is basically a blog of a bunch of stuff I like and a documentary of my life because I can't remember things
Alex F is my name
I love people
I live in Santa Monica, CA, aka paradise
Dude fuck relationships
Been talking to this girl in LA for over a month, at first took her on a couple dates and then I left for school two weeks into knowing her. We kept talking and eventually started skyping every night for multiple hours. I’ve told this girl things I’ve never told a girl before and trusted her a bit, I mean I really like(d) her… She shared the same feelings, called me all the time and was down for this whole thing. Probably one of the best girls I’ve ever met, super smart, she goes to UCLA and wants to be a neurosurgeon, hot, and I should stop talking about the good parts. But basically she tells me to come out to LA soon all the time and eventually I cave and buy tix to come see, I’ll be perfectly honest here, her mostly but some of my buds as well. I land at noon on Thursday, get picked up by my buddy and chill for a couple hours til she gets out of class, go to her place and shack up for over 24 hours til she has class the next day. Brought her chocolates and took her to a nice Italian place Thursday night. So then I leave Friday round 3 and head to my buddies place til that night when I go to a meeting and see her there but she has to go do step work so she says I can’t come over that night. Alright, that’s good, she’s working on herself, right? I text her later that night to see how she’s doing. Oh let me interject here, the plan was that I would stay at her place every night, so there’s a game changer. So I end up staying at my buddy’s place and she never texts me back. We planned to meet up around 3 on Saturday after this thing she had to do, so I called her at about 3:30. No answer, called 3 hours later, nada. Eventually I text her around 1030pm and she texts me back saying she’s at a concert. I told her to have fun and hit me up after if she wants. She texts me the next day at like 5pm saying hey sorry I got home at 5am and just woke up hahaha. So alright, I’m basically supposed to leave in like 15 hours at that point. So she never texts me back. Ever. Nothing. Now just to mention this idk why this crossed my mind but it was never even about sex, I just actually really like this girl which I’ve never ever felt in my life really. So I guess she doesn’t really care about the relationship or has her own AA recovery shit going on but no contact? What? She thinks I’m back at GMU I think because I never got the chance to tell her that a relative passed away and I’m in town for another week. So I know I should be over it or whatever if she doesn’t care but it’s much harder than that. Fuck my shit honestly. I shouldn’t have ever started something with someone without a year sober I guess? I didn’t even realize that when I met her, she seemed so put together. This is why I hate being interested in a girl for anything besides sex.
My god I just wrote a lot, if you read this which I hope you didn’t, keep it trill and never speak of this again